Reasons to die on my birthday.
1. It’s been my mission since primary school.
2. Everyone that said they’ve cared, were full of shit.
3. I will finally do something all the way through.
4. Best cure for bipolar disorder.
5. No longer would i be considered an addict.
6. Wouldn’t have to confess to my family members my secrets as the time comes near.
7. I often think its the only way i wont brutally murder people.
8. No one will ever love me.
9. My life is total shit.
10. My life plan is irrealistic.
11. I’ll never maintain a job.
12. I’ll never have a ‘normal’ life.
13. To put end to the voices in my head.
14. To give everyone what they want.
15. People will stop criticizing my actions.
16. Because a bullet in my head would be faster then a trip to the cancer ward when i lose remission.
17. Before my heart gets a larger whole.
18. I’ll be choosing my own death.
19. Nothing will ever change.
20. I won’t ever fail again.
21. My ‘friends’ and ‘family’ won’t have to worry about my violent tendancies.
22. It wont hurt to breathe.
23. So when i feel like i’m burning alive, at least it will be in hell, and not because someone made me wish i could burn.
24. No more blood.
25.My body will be ash, so i wont be fat nor ugly anymore.
26. I’ll be dead before someone i care about dies.
27. the world doesn’t need me..
28. I’ll never feel alive.
29. Being in darkness is better then following a light that doesn’t want to save you.
30. No more tears.
31. No more wanting to stab myself a million times to stop the lump in my throat from choking me.
32. No more faked smiles or Masks.
33.No one would stop me.
34. Would be forgotten by everyone, including family in 5 years.
35. Would never have to make another list on why to die.
36. Because living in hell should only be for the dead.
37. I’ll never have to look into someone eyes and lie.
38. Never be ridiculed for my decisions.
39. Nothing will ever change.
40. I’ll have to go sooner or later, why not in 8 days…
AFTER GETTING ACQUAINTED WITH SUPERNATURAL
ok, I’m done. For now.
(Source: theradnessqueen)
